There was a time when building things felt great and magical to me. Writing code, making projects, overcoming challenges and diving into new ideas used to be exhilarating. Basically an endless playground of creativity and problem solving, but lately it all has felt really dull. In simple terms, I would say the spark is gone.
Burnout and depression sneak up like that. It doesn’t make itself known by announcing itself loudly, instead, it erodes passion bit by bit until what once felt like fun turns into work, and work turns into exhaustion. It’s not even all about coding, either. Playing games with friends, socializing, and hobbies—simple joys become chores. The worst part of it all? Guilt of not enjoying what you used to love.
I’ve taken some time to look back and understand what went wrong. I overwhelmed myself by taking on too much at once, expecting far more than I could reasonably handle. I started too many projects simultaneously, failing to set practical deadlines and stretching myself too thin. The pressure I placed on myself became unsustainable, and eventually, the excitement I once had was replaced with exhaustion.
For now, I’m allowing myself to step back. To breathe. To not feel obligated to create. Maybe in a few weeks, or even months, I’ll be in a better place to dive back into some projects I left unfinished and be easier on myself. Definitely in a few weeks I will get back into doing weeknotes and doing more regular introspection.